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Post by Gavin Elijah Parker on Apr 8, 2011 23:44:40 GMT -6
Gavin could practically hear his heart beating, hammering away in his chest. It was... she was... Adriane could probably hear it and Gavin suddenly became self-conscious about it. Would she turn him away because he was so nervous? But he really couldn't help it... since Adriane was his first. First kiss. First crush. First girl best friend. First... everything. Gavin even usually let her have the first lick of the ice cream. Yeah. Gavin was predictable, laid back, and just simply accommodating. Everything was always the same, and everything just happened the same. But Gavin didn't really like change. Although... this change... this change in Adriane... he didi like. Because he enjoyed kissing her, and he enjoyed her being so close to him, and he enjoyed her not calling him stupid names or laughing about something that he did or said. It was... nice to be liked, to be close, and to just... be together.
But this new kissing? This new way that Gavin had adapted of kissing Adriane... it was... rougher, and more intense and... OH VOLDEMORT. What if Adriane thought that he was a horrible kisser?! What would they do? More like, what would he do? Oh gosh. Gavin felt his cheeks redden some more amongst the kissing, and he felt a hand run up Adriane's back. The other stayed in place where it was left, at the small of her back. He hoped that the touch, the movement of his touch would distract her from his inexperienced kissing. Well, he definitely hoped that it would. Because Adriane was probably so advanced... she'd probably kissed so many guys like this and... oh... how Gavin hoped that he wasn't just a notch in her bedpost or a mark on her wall. He hoped...
For a moment, even though he did not want to, he pulled away from her, a little out of breath. Gavin sighed lightly, opening his eyes up and looking at Adriane, pressing his forehead to hers. Gavin shoved his lower lip into his mouth again, nervous. He wished he hadn't stopped... now things were going to get awkward, he just knew it. "Adriane..." he said softly, and slowly... but definitely audibly this time. "I..." Gavin moved his hand out of the water and ran his thumb across Adriane's cheek, where a bit of makeup was left. "I... think..."
What was he getting at? Surely... no. No! He wouldn't ever say that. No. Not now... well, if Adriane had said it first, maybe. Yeah. But... not him, not first. Gavin moved his hand and put it behind Adriane's head underneath her hair, just where the water level was. But it didn't matter what he said, because he leaned in and kissed her once more, softly this time. [/size]
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Post by Adriane Brielle Koller on Apr 9, 2011 0:32:20 GMT -6
Bad kisser or good kisser? Good. What would Adriane have done if Gavin were a bad kisser? Well, she would have been disappointed and she wouldn't have made herself quite so easy to get a hold of at this point. She would have been thinking more with her head rather than with her hormones. Oh and she would not have kissed him back for this long. Kissing was a lovely thing. Kissing in the water was a lovely and challenging thing. Kissing in the water with a bad kisser was a not worth it thing. So, yeah she wouldn't have kissed him like this if he was a bad kisser. But, how would Gavin had known that? He wouldn't. But, Adriane didn't know she was Gavin's first kiss and she wasn't thinking about how he might feel insecure. After all, he had kissed her so....confidently and Adriane was more wrapped up in her own desires and insecurities. She couldn't worry about his. The movement of his one hand up her back was the only thing that managed to draw her attention away from the focus on their mouths. So...guys had kissed her like this before. Prior boyfriends or you know, just guys. The kissed her with a sense of want or even need. But, they just wanted or needed her. They didn't care for her and so when she kissed them back, she did not kiss them like she kissed Gavin. Most of the guys she was with over her years at Hogwarts was due to appearances. They were never allowed pass go and collect 200 dollars. Adriane had a strict set of rules that nobody knew about. It was a checklist, like when you are at the airport and they have a list of flights and their arrival times. Hugging. Welcomed. Kissing. Permitted. Addition of Tongue. Sometimes. Touching with Clothes On. Good Mood Required. Clothes Coming Off. Delayed. Anything Beyond. Um Hell to the No. And now with in this span of time, hadn't Gavin managed to achieve all of those? Quite. They were in a lake in their underwear, full on snogging. Well...not anymore... Her brow furrowed as Gavin pulled away from her, she immediately letting out a sharp sigh through her mouth. Her chest heaved slightly from all the hormones raging and the energy she had to exert to stay above water while kissing him. Her brow furrowed further as her eyes immediately glanced down at Gavin's lips to see that he was nervous. And then all of a sudden she became nervous, just as she thought the nervousness was fading away significantly. What did she do? Did she do something wrong? She hadn't really moved. What...what was going on? Worry was written on her face despite his forehead being pressed gently to hers, he remaining so close. Losing Gavin really was one of the things of which she was most afraid. "Adriane..."Oh...dear...Merlin...., she thought. "I..."She held her breath and felt barely able to function as his wet thumb grazed her cheek, perhaps wiping a smudge that had not been washed away yet. "I... think..."She felt herself die a little inside. You think what?! YOU THINK WHAT?! You think...you think that we shouldn't be together and you don't want to ruin our friendship..and and...this is all a mistake?! No Gavin please...no....But before she had time to scramble for something to say, her eyes were closed as he kissed her in the way that only Gavin had ever kissed her. The gentle, heartfelt way that made her heart stop and this warming sensation to course throughout her entire body. But what...what did he think?! Her mind argued with her heart and she pulled away gently, her forehead not even resting on his. "I can't focus when you start saying something and then just......stop. Finish your sentence so you can keep kissing me. I love you.".................................................................... She meant she loved it. IT IT IT IT. But there was a Freudian slip and you just sort of slipped out. Just as if it was regular conversation and no big deal. Yeah...about that... It took her a moment. Delayed reaction. Her eyes went wide and her mouth just fell open entirely. Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh. No words. Adriane had no words. Her face was red and she couldn't speak. Could. Not. Speak. "I....errr....meant.....I love......it.........but...........it just........I um.....But I um..." She gulped, frozen. "I......." Fail.
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Post by Gavin Elijah Parker on Apr 9, 2011 0:54:21 GMT -6
What did Gavin think? Well... he thought he was in love, that was for sure. But love as in a friend, right? Like, he loved Adriane as a friend, and they were doing what friends did, right? Friends could kiss, and go swimming together... but after a few moments of pondering this... they weren't doing friendly kisses and they weren't just "swimming." Well, you could call it swimming, but... Gavin wouldn't. In fact, Gavin didn't know what he would call it. So? A recap of what had happened? Gavin followed Adriane to lake. Adriane was crying, so she hugged him. He hugged her back. She told him an intense secret and kissed his cheek, to which he replied by kissing her full on the lips. YIKES! Then! THEN! It was all blank beyond there. Gavin had just let go, and just did what he was told to do, like always. But he'd never had a mental block like that before. He could usually process thoughts...
But now... his hand... her neck... no clothes... NO CLOTHES?! Since when?! Oh. Yeah. Since they decided to go swimming in the lake, that's when! Gavin was definitely having a mental freak out at the moment. He probably hadn't had one if he would have just kept kissing Adriane instead of backing away and saying her name, then I, then 'I think...' like an imbecile. Or maybe not an imbecile per say... but a nut. Yeah, a nut. Gavin could be a nut. But they were pressed so tightly together that there probably wasn't any water between them. Not that Gavin minded, of course. He liked it, actually... just... he felt stupid for saying things that he had no intention of finishing. What. A. Doorknob.
Yes. Gavin was being a doorknob.
So that was why he leaned forward and kissed her, hoping that she would forget all about his stupidity. Buuuuuut... no.
"I can't focus when you start saying something and then just......stop. Finish your sentence so you can keep kissing me. I love you."
Gavin sighed lightly. What would be something reasonable that he could tell her? The truth? No! No way! The truth is completely unreasonable! Why? Because he had just realized that he had liked her maybe and hour or so ago... Even though Gavin's creator knows that it was much longer than that, probably closer to the amount of time that Adriane had liked him. Yeah, probably. But the realization did not hit him until this particular day. And maybe it was just the hormones that were rushing through him? Yeah, that could be it! That could explain his irrational thoughts... But what was something rational...
Then it hit him.
What did she just say?
Apparently, Adriane hadn't expected herself to say it either because her eyes grew wide and her mouth dropped open. "Y-you do?" Maybe she didn't mean it? Maybe... it was a slip? But... even if it were a Freudian slip... didn't that dead muggle say that the slips were your real wants? Real truths? Gavin couldn't really remember, because it had been awhile since he'd read about that. So he couldn't remember. But... what? "Because that's w-what I think I was going to..." But Gavin didn't have enough time to finish before some ramblings came spurting out of Adriane's mouth.
"I....errr....meant.....I love......it.........but...........it just........I um.....But I um... I......."
It? It, as in what they were doing? What they realized? She didn't love him? Gavin's heart sank in his chest, and he immediately felt... downed. He felt... ruined... like he'd built himself up for something great and was let down. Well, even if it wasn't great... he was definitely let down... since he loved... or at least he thought... he loved Adriane. Gavin wasn't so sure now... and he definitely couldn't tell her now that she didn't love him. What Gavin wanted nothing more than to do was to back away from her and go to shore, get dressed and go sulk in the common room. Buuuuuuttttttt... we all know Gavin and we all know that he isn't going to do that. He was going to stay put and see what Adriane had to say. Hopefully... it was something to make Gavin stay... [/size]
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Post by Adriane Brielle Koller on Apr 9, 2011 22:46:52 GMT -6
"Y-you do?"I love you's were tricky for Adriane. She hadn't said I love you to anyone since Corinne's death, because she didn't love her parents and she hadn't any real friends beside Gavin. So, it was safe to say she was flipping out about saying it accidentally more than the average person would who had just come to the realization they loved someone and then went and said it awkwardly. Plus, she said it first and Adriane had never intended to say it first. He couldn't love her!! Could he?! Would he?! Well, probably not considering he just asked her if she did instead of just saying it back. Of course, she had said it awkwardly..but Adriane failed to fully consider this and just felt like an idiot. A complete idiot. "Because that's w-what I think I was going to..."She didn't even process this crucial phrase. Did not. Even. Process. She couldn't. Her head was too wrapped around the fact she had just dropped an L bomb..in fact, the L bomb right atop Gavin's head. Gavin! He was the one person she needed to keep in her life and now she probably scared him away or something. She would lose him and lose herself..and and and. Panic. Adriane was panicked. "I....errr....meant.....I love......it.........but...........it just........I um.....But I um... I......."Wha-Wait. And now the delay kicked in. She had heard what she said. And now suddenly had processed it. "Because"...so he was explaining something that had to do what she said....that she said I love you and he was going....going to say the same thing?! He was?! But he had added the "I think" on the end and Adriane wasn't going to put herself out there like that was she? But if he thought he did and then she said she didn't, that would be worse right? Right so...she should just say it...Again. The L word. For the first time in....almost 10 years? "Gavin I......haven't said that to anyone since Corinne died and......it slipped out......but..........I meant it...I l-...I...." She sighed, frustrated with herself. "I don't want to lose you. I need you," she said, pulling herself tightly to him again....in the water..Somehow the near nakedness didn't really phase her at this point.
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Post by Gavin Elijah Parker on Apr 9, 2011 23:09:09 GMT -6
Did Gavin love Adriane? It was a good question. He wasn't very sure. He was nervous... as he'd just realized that he liked her as more than Adriane his best friend. Gavin liked her as more... Adriane the sweet girl who he could call his. His girlfriend. Sure, it was secret, but it was still... great. Gavin... did think that he loved her. Maybe it was immature and un-thought out love... but it was there. Or... it could be friendly love. Like... she was/is his best friend so he loves her in a friendly way. But... it just seemed good to say it now because they were all out in the open with their secrets now and it was okay to say things that you wouldn't normally say, right? So Gavin saying I love you to Adriane wouldn't turn out badly, would it? No...? But he just didn't want to be the first one to say it. Gavin was pretty much done with being spontaneous. He didn't even want to procure a kiss. Well... he did... but...
"Gavin I......haven't said that to anyone since Corinne died and......it slipped out......but..........I meant it...I l-...I....I don't want to lose you. I need you."
Gavin blinked once. No, she didn't say it. He'd almost given himself away by telling her that he thought he was in love with her, and then she rambled saying some unintelligible things and that turned him away from the thought, knowing that she didn't love him then, if it was such an issue that she had accidentally said it. Yes. If he had accidentally said it, he probably would have just blushed and said... 'sorry,' but that was him. Adriane probably had an entirely different system than him. But it did seem like she was going to say it again... actually say it, tell him that she loved him. Gavin wasn't entirely sure, and he didn't know what to say to her... especially when she latched back on to him again. "I d-don't think you need me..." d@mn. There was his low-self esteem kicking in again. "B-but I mean I-uh do like that you say th-that..." Gavin put his arms back around Adriane in a hug-like fashion. "Adriane..." he said, softly, "I... I l-love..." Gavin felt the color rush to his cheeks. "...y-you..." [/size]
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Post by Adriane Brielle Koller on Apr 9, 2011 23:25:35 GMT -6
"I d-don't think you need me..." She hugged him tighter. Yes she did need him more than anything. Adriane was sure that without Gavin in her life, she would completely fall apart. It was her greatest fear to be alone and lose herself. After Corinne died, she was lost. She considered herself having no family and no friends. And then, Gavin came along and saved her completely. He was always there for her through whatever she needed him for, though most times he would not even know she was going through something. He was just there and Adriane knew that was all she ever needed to make things seem a bit brighter. His face. His smile and his eyes and the way he cared for her. And now he did care for her, though she was still waiting to see how much. "B-but I mean I-uh do like that you say th-that..."She sighed as she felt his arms wrap around her once more. "No Gavin, I need you."But not only him, of course. If she only needed him, he wouldn't have to be her secret boyfriend. At this point, Adriane was out to have her cake and eat it too. She wanted the status in school and her love life all together. Together, but separate. Though, she wasn't thinking about this now. She was just sort of clinging to Gavin as if when she let go, she would burst into flames like phoenix. Except, Adriane wouldn't be reborn. She could not live a life without Gavin. He made her feel alive and warm again after she felt like a stone cold vampire following Corinne's death. Gavin was her world and she couldn't even say it. "Adriane..."She felt her breath catch and she hugged him even tighter so it was probably uncomfortable. Though, there was more wiggle room in the water and they had to stay afloat so that was taken into consideration. "I... I l-love......y-you...""I love you too."And somehow it had come out so clearly and effortlessly right into his ear. Her grip let up and she moved so her face was right in front of his once more. "I do need you and you are best not to tell me otherwise. I....can't even put into words. Gavin, I just love you, okay? Really and truly. Don't take it back. Promise?" She bit her lip as she looked into his eyes, nervous and yet happy. Nearly incandescently so.
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Post by Gavin Elijah Parker on Apr 9, 2011 23:47:18 GMT -6
Ah... Gavin's cheeks were more than likely the color of a sunset mixed with catsup and then, THEN mixed with tons and tons of other red colored things. Red, red, red, and even more red! Gavin couldn't believe that he had told Adriane that he loved her. He said it first! And he still wasn't entirely sure if Adriane felt the same way that he did... since she had freaked out so when she accidentally let it slip out. Buttttt... now Gavin's feelings were known and we would see where it would go from there. Gavin was of course hoping that Adriane would say that she loved him too, but actually mean it. He was hoping that her words would make him feel the way that she felt about him. That was the only possible way that it would be okay for her to say it back to him. The only way. Or he would just feel like a total doorknob yet again.
"I love you too."
It was quiet, but effortless, and not to mention right in his ear, which caught his attention. It was... nice. And... it was like... a secret, but not really a secret, because he knew about it. But a secret between them. And Raven, of course, because... she was crazy and knew practically everything about Gavin and Adriane's relationship... even things that Gavin himself did not know, like apparently Adriane's feelings for him. Raven didn't blatantly tell him that Adriane liked him, but she had hinted. That girl was brilliant. But... back to the way Adriane had said that she loved Gavin... he felt it. He definitely felt it. In more ways than one, and no, this was not Gavin's creator's way of throwing something gutter-minded into a post. No. Gavin... did feel it multiple ways. His heart did a little flutter, his eyes opened wide, (luckily Adriane could not see them) and he just wanted to leap out of the water in joy. But would he do that? OOOOOF course not. He was so out of his mind in happiness that he didn't even notice Adriane move away from him until she was looking at him, and her blue eyes caught the barely visible sunlight just right. Gosh... she was so beautiful...
"I do need you and you are best not to tell me otherwise. I....can't even put into words. Gavin, I just love you, okay? Really and truly. Don't take it back. Promise?"
Gavin just looked into her eyes. Would he take it back? Of course not. This was the best news he'd ever received. Adriane loved him. Adriane loved him. Adriane and Gavin 4ever!
Okay. Not so.
Maybe Gavin's mind was playing that thought over... in a course of a few minutes he had their entire life planned out... a house with a white picket fence and a dog with kids playing in the yard... a sandbox and a swingset just visible from the front yard... and the two of them happily enjoying a summer day from their porch. It went on like a video montage of two people growing old with one another... Yes, Gavin was lame like that. But it made him happy to think up fantasies like that... like things that seemed so impossible before were actually... possible. Like a life with Adriane. It now seemed... possible. After school, appearances and status didn't much matter. When you're graduated, your friends don't care what you were like in school. They care about you, now. And... right now... all Gavin cared about was Adriane... now. "I wouldn't ever dream of taking it back. This is..." Gavin felt a smile cross his lips. "This is like a dream come true. You are so perfect. This is perfect." [/size]
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Post by Adriane Brielle Koller on Apr 10, 2011 0:06:51 GMT -6
Gavin was just....Gavin was just....Well, Adriane didn't quite know how to describe him as the bobbed in the water and she looked straight into his eyes as if they were bottomless pools themselves which she could just get lost in and stay in forever. Forever and ever. Yes, Adriane thought that way too. Why shouldn't she? She had had feelings for Gavin for a long time. Such a long time and at one point they were loving feelings that didn't involve teenage hormones or lust or anything of the sort. At one point it had been a girlish crush. Innocent love. And as the years went on, she started to think about things. Like, she loved Gavin's parents and she felt almost a part of their family. And Raven was like a sister. She wasn't Corinne, but Adriane loved her too. So, it wasn't that she was afraid of losing Gavin but that she was also afraid of losing everything that went along with him. Home cooked meals and real family dinners. Parents to look after her and ask about her not because they were half worried she had spilled some horrible secret or were trying to makeup for that secret. And she could see herself sitting down at the dinner table of the Parker household for years to come. When they were engaged and married and then with kids and......she was so swept up and carried away and had been for years. "I wouldn't ever dream of taking it back. This is..."She breathed a sigh of relief and beamed at him, placing a quick kiss upon his lips before meeting his gaze once more. "This is like a dream come true. You are so perfect. This is perfect.""I am not perfect," she said, quickly and almost sharply before she could stop herself. Adriane hated that word perfect. It held so much meaning for her. First off, she was not perfect and would never be perfect. She was going to kill her parents. Their blood would be on her hands and she would like it. Perfect people didn't dare dream of such things, let alone gain pleasure out of dreaming and then doing. Her parents ruined that word. Her parents were all about being perfect and that pressure was what had killed Corinne. Them and their perfect house and their perfect family with their perfect daughters! Now daughter. Singular. Because the other one didn't want to be perfect! "I may be perfect for you, but I'm not perfect. Okay?" she added, more gently. Adriane kissed him softly.
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Post by Gavin Elijah Parker on Apr 10, 2011 0:23:30 GMT -6
Did Gavin think that Adriane Brielle Koller was perfect? He definitely did. He didn't think that Adriane watching her sister die messed her up at all. At least... from what he could tell. He'd just barely gotten to know the entire Adriane... and she seemed fine. Perfect, even. Yes, Gavin did think that Adriane was perfect. Perfect for him.
"I am not perfect."
Gavin was a little taken aback. He had basically just told her that this was a dream come true... actually... he had told her this. And he meant it, too. That cheesy montage that had run through his mind? That now plausible montage that had just run through his mind? That was how Gavin wanted his life to be. Happy. Perfect. And it could only achieve perfection if that woman sitting next to him was her. She was perfect. "I... well... I meant th-that you're perfect... t-to me. F-for me.
"I may be perfect for you, but I'm not perfect. Okay?"
Adriane planted a soft kiss on Gavin's lips. Oh how he didn't want to move from this position. It was comfortable and close and... so... unlike what he was used to. Gavin was definitely not used to this close of a proximity with her... and the kissing and everything. And of course he liked it. It was perfect, just like Adriane. She might not like him telling her that she was perfect, but at least he would be allowed to think it in the safety zone of his mind. "Okay." he said. Gavin always agreed verbally with what Adriane said... mentally... not always. Like this time. Gavin leaned in close again, and planted another kiss on her lips. Now that everything was out in the open... he could kiss her. That was okay, right? Gavin kissing Adriane? She wouldn't be angry at him for doing so, right? [/size]
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Post by Adriane Brielle Koller on Apr 10, 2011 0:40:16 GMT -6
"Okay."She nodded, satisfied and agreed. She was not perfect. Good. And then he did as any good and loving boyfriend would do when there was nothing more to say on a subject - He kissed her. And she loved him for it. Gavin could kiss her now. Really kiss her. Anyway he liked. In fact, he could have anything he liked from her. Anything. Are you getting the implication here? She had saved it for him and he loved her and she loved him. And today was brilliant and there was nothing that could happen to ruin it. It could only get better and she knew how to make it better. And then she could tell her daughter about this years from now. Sure, her daughter would be a bit a grossed but it would be romantic, wouldn't it? A declaration of love and a showing of it all in the same day? It would be nearly perfect. And she hadn't much schoolwork tonight. Plus, they were already on a risque track with the underwear and the swimming. And besides, she had waited long enough - Longer than most other Slytherin girls or so they broadcast. As far as Adriane was concerned - Tonight, Gavin could have her. All of her. The Room of Requirement existed mostly for that reason did it not? For teens to have a private place? Surely not everyone used it for certain purposed but Adriane couldn't seem to see any other point for it now. Did it make her nervous to think about? YES. Adriane had never received "the talk". She wasn't even a teenager when Corinne passed away. She had no relationship with her mother at all or her father. And Adriane wasn't going to ask Gavin's mom about it! Because that would be awkward to ask his mom and secretly be thinking about her son while she asked. Ew! Totally not appropriate! She pulled away from him gently, her lips parting from his, her mind made up and her stomach in knots. "Gavin, tonight you should meet me in the Room of Requirement."Would he get it?
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Post by Gavin Elijah Parker on Apr 10, 2011 0:52:39 GMT -6
Gavin was starting to get a little cold. The sun had since gone down, but it was still sort of light out. But Gavin couldn't really feel the cold. No... his attention was better served elsewhere, such as on Adriane. Gavin's attention was always on Adriane. He had always been the best listener, the best shoulder to cry on, the best host when it came to her visiting him at his house... Of course, his parents had a hand in on that too, but, she was there to see him, wasn't she? Gavin knew that now. She'd liked him for seven plus years, that was what she had said, right? Yeah.
Gavin simply smiled as they parted from their kiss, and then gently placed a kiss on Adriane's jaw line. He'd heard that girls liked that once... Probably from one of his friends. And then he placed one on her shoulder, and then her cheek. Was he going too far? Too fast? Gavin backed up quickly, but not as if he were scared by something. He just... backed up. But faster than normal. Yeah, he probably was. Gavin's reduced color cheeks were now filling back up with color... just... maybe a bit lighter this time. When he looked at Adriane, she looked a bit... apprehensive? About... well... probably something. Gavin was about to ask what was wrong when she spoke.
"Gavin, tonight you should meet me in the Room of Requirement."
Gavin moved his head back so he could get a better look at her. He raised an eyebrow. Was... was she serious? What did she mean... well... what was she planning on doing in the Room of Requirement? It gave you whatever you desired, right? Well... what if you had everything you already desired? Right there in your arms, like Gavin did at that very moment. But what on earth could Adriane want to...
OH.
It couldn't, could it? Could she really want to... to do that? Gavin's eyes grew wider, and he was at a loss for words. She couldn't want to do that. That was... scandalous. And he'd just gotten his first kiss... and she'd probably done it a couple times already and she would think that he was lame and inexperienced and dump him and his entire montage of their future would be deleted forever. "...okay..." he gulped. [/size]
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Post by Adriane Brielle Koller on Apr 10, 2011 1:09:26 GMT -6
He was really full of surprises. Sometimes he was nervous and other times he took the lead and...well, it seemed as though he was still figuring out what was allowed or what he should be doing. But, Adriane liked this figuring things out. They could manage it because they loved each other and were comfortable with each other in every way except the physical. They weren't comfortable? No! Of course not! But, it was the good kind of uncomfortable that happened when you were inexperienced and loved someone. He was kissing her gently in placed that brought him close to her and...she liked it. A lot. It was obvious that Gavin wanted her to like it and was doing it to make her happy. Other guys just did what made them happy. That was a secondary reason of why she wanted to wait for Gavin other than the fact that she loved him. She wanted someone that cared about her and wanted her to enjoy something instead of being so self-centered. Guys were all about their d*cks weren't they....Well, not Gavin. Her mind was caught up at this point between what she wanted to tell him and what he had just done...and...she couldn't help but be nervous. "Gavin, tonight you should meet me in the Room of Requirement."And there is was. And all of a sudden he was looking at her with a single raised eyebrow and she wanted to die. He was going to reject her proposition!? She had waited years for him and now wanted to give it up and he was going to go all responsible on her or something. Say love didn't matter and they should date longer? She had no idea. Adriane's mind was running. Racing. "...okay..."Adriane watched as his adam's apple moved and bit her lip. Nerves. It was obvious. Gavin hadn't done it before. She was sure of it. But...when she did the whole "I never....with a guy before..." had he gotten the full take away? She didn't want to sleep with him and him think it wasn't as special as it was. Plus, weren't you supposed to let a guy know that kind of thing? It seemed...necessary. "I......my......I wanted it to be with you...for my......first." Still clearly apprehensive. What if he didn't want to partake because she hadn't partaken before? No that was silly. He loved her. Maybe he could be happy about it? But guys wanted a girl who didn't have to worry about things like...Well things. And...Oh boy.
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Post by Gavin Elijah Parker on Apr 10, 2011 1:26:23 GMT -6
Gavin really didn't know where Adriane was going with this. Why would she want to do it... IT. IT with him? He was just Gavin... lowly Ravenclaw Gavin that got made fun of and laughed at previously by Adriane and her friends. Her high class Slytherin friends. Her friends that didn't approve of him... and their relationship. If they even knew that the two of them had a relationship at all... it wouldn't surprise Gavin if they had no idea at all. Surely they didn't know... since... they were still friends with Adriane. That or they didn't care as much as Adriane seemed to think they did. But either way. There were more important things to cover at this moment. Like... why Adriane wanted to do it with him. Not that he minded... no, Gavin didn't mind at all. He wanted this... he wanted her. But that tiny little part of him that wondered how many times...
"I......my......I wanted it to be with you...for my......first."
Gavin rested his forehead against Adriane's and looked at her. Gazed at her, lovingly. He loved her. He wanted to be with her. Gavin wanted to share something so special as... well... that with her. Yeah. That thought had crossed his mind... well... a few times. But could one blame him? He was a guy for Pete's sake, and Adriane was beautiful. Of course he would have thoughts of such kind. Just... before today... he didn't accept them. Gavin brushed them away, ignored them... They weren't real to him. They were just... thoughts. And he felt bad for thinking in such a scandalous way about his best friend. But now she was bringing it up and... she just had to have...
No wait...
Did she just say...
First?
Gavin looked at Adriane, a puzzled expression on his face as if he did not understand what she had said to him. But... he did. His mind was mulling it over as if it were so confusing. But it was a statement. She wanted him to be her first. She hadn't done it. She... was just as new to this... want, this... desire this... love... as he was. It was almost too much for Gavin... he almost wanted to jump out of the lake and go right there, now. But... he wouldn't. And we all know why that is. We'll just say... that... now we know for sure that it would be a pleasant experience for Gavin now that he knew that she was just as inexperienced as he...
But...
what if...
she..
was lying......?
Impossible. People who loved one another did not lie about things like that, did they? Adriane wouldn't lie to Gavin. If she ever did lie, she would explain to him later why she did it. And they were usually so... minor that it didn't even matter in the long run. Adriane wouldn't lie about something this huge. "...Your... first?" he nervously smiled, a small, apprehensive smile that matched the apprehensive look upon her face. "It..." he paused, "It'll be a... an ex-experience for b-both of us. L-like starting fresh..." [/size]
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Post by Adriane Brielle Koller on Apr 10, 2011 1:49:21 GMT -6
She has spoken English. Not Spanish. Not French. Not Italian or German or Russian. English. Plain English. So, why was Gavin looking at her so oddly? It didn't help her stomach in knots at all. He was going to say no because she was a ...virgin. I mean..he was a guy! He was just being himself. His guy self like any other 17 year old boy. He wanted someone who knew what she was doing. He wanted someone that didn't come with an extreme attachment or some...physical..you know things that came with...you know. It was fine. She had only been saving herself for nothing. For absolutely nothing. Panic. panic panic panic! "...Your... first?" "Um...yeah....I....just always thought it would be...you. I um...never even....took off my clothes...well you know. I just....it was for...you."And she was completely red in the face. Now he was probably going to think she was ridiculously obsessed and had envisioned them together for years and that she probably thought they would end up together. And then it would probably scare him off because boys feared commitment. And then she would be alone! Completely and utterly alone! "It..."Pauses killed her. "It'll be a... an ex-experience for b-both of us. L-like starting fresh..."So maybe she needed to stop freaking out in her head for no reason when Gavin wanted to be with her as much as she wanted to be with him. Yeah. Good idea. "Yes....I can't wait." And then she kissed him in a way that clearly said "I can't wait". Mhmm. She pulled away from him slowly, realizing it was now dark outside. "I guess...we can head in...may be best if I go in first.." Reality. Secret. This was a secret. "I love you, Gavin." She kissed him again. "11 sound good to you?" She kissed him again.
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Post by Gavin Elijah Parker on Apr 10, 2011 2:08:25 GMT -6
Was Gavin nervous? Uh, Yeah!!!! This girl. This highly attractive, completely beautiful, girl who had been his best friend for years with pretty blue eyes and dark hair and had been mean to him... but that didn't matter. What mattered was that he was... with her. He was with her now and they didn't have any plans of not being together... not at the moment anyway. No. They were planning on... it. In the room of requirement. Tonight. Gavin was... he was... it was... self-explanatory. Of course it was.
Um...yeah....I....just always thought it would be...you. I um...never even....took off my clothes...well you know. I just....it was for...you."
Adriane was saving it... for him? Her... everything? And yes, Gavin considered that everything. It was a huge step, and he was even shocked at this point that he had even agreed to it so early in their new chapter of their relationship. He was shocked at himself. Shocked... but... then again, not shocked. Because as mentioned so many times in this thread... Gavin went along with anything that Adriane said... so it really wasn't a surprise. But it was a surprised because... it was... everything. "...You d-didn't do th-that for m-me?" and now the stuttering was getting to be more prominent, and Gavin stuck his bottom lip into his mouth and bit it. Hard. Not only was he nervous, now he was embarrassed, too.
""Yes....I can't wait."
Gavin smiled a little, a little smile that said, 'I'm happy, but nervous...' which... was obvious. One could always tell when Gavin was nervous... because of the obvious stutter and the way he stuck his bottom lip into his mouth. Adriane probably had that pegged within the first month of them being friends. But Gavin soon forgot his nervousness as Adriane kissed him... he sighed lightly through his nose, kissing her back. She was making him want it. And when she pulled away from him, Gavin wavered a slight look of disappointment that he quickly shoved off and the apprehensive look was back.
"I guess...we can head in...may be best if I go in first... I love you, Gavin."
Adriane kissed him again. Obviously he wanted more. But... he'd get more kisses later, right? "I love you, Adriane..." Boy, it felt good to say that...
"11 sound good to you?"
Gavin simply nodded, the intensity of the situation pushing him down, hard. Eleven was good... But he just wanted one more kiss, which he planted gently on her jawline once more. [/size]
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